♡ mikaela hyakuya ♡
“ you deserve love and you'll get it ”
where do i even begin? what combination of words, no matter how big or small, could ever begin to even scrape the surface of my love for the most beautiful boy in the world? the timer above is how long i've been into owari no seraph and how long mika has been my ultimate favourite character of all time. i don't think my love will ever stop. even at times where i thought i would drop him, i was eventually drawn back into his complex, yet beautiful, personality. due to how complex he is, many people have misunderstood his actions and perhaps his entire character in general. i don't think i can count how many posts i've made where i defended him and explained why he did certain things. these kinds of posts come out of me without hesitation and i never have trouble writing them because the truth is that i adore mika! even though he's not real he's one of the most important people in my life. he's the light of my life and i will always be wishing him love, warmth, and safety because it's what he deserves. why does he deserve all of these things as well as many other positive things in the dictionary? well, take a seat!
let's start from the very beginning where mika was still living in an abusive household with his insane mother and his drunk father. mika was a loving son and loved both of his parents in spite of how abusive they were towards them. mika has always been so so loving. his father beat him and blamed mika for his mother's insanity when in reality mika had done nothing wrong to either of his parents. mika had nothing to do with his mother's behaviour. in reality, his mother had joined some sort of cult or religion where she had started to go crazy. one day, mika and his parents were out on a drive. one day, mika's mother opened the door to the car that was going at about 120km/h and she told mika to jump out of the car. even when his mother told him to do such a thing, mika didn't lash out on her. he begged for her to keep her and he told her he loved her. he even promised her that he would be a better son when it was his parents who should've been working to become better. from there, mika was pushed out of the moving car and almost died. from the road, mika watched as his parents' car crashed and watched as his parents died during the accident.
now, let's move onto the hyakuya orphanage as well as mika's time in sanguinem. first of all, after talking about his past, i have to say that mika is one of the strongest characters i know! he's the strongest one i know! even after everything he's been through, he wasn't bitter, cruel, or mean. instead, he remained caring and loving. he created a family for all the other orphans. he became the leader and he became someone that all the orphans could rely on. mika created his own, proper version of family. he created his own real family and that's one of the many reasons why i admire him! he didn't wallow in his sorrow! he kept moving. he was still standing after his parents' death and he used his past to better himself.
“ my day is not complete if i
don't tell you i love you”
in sanguinem, after being taken by the vampires, mika still did not give up. in fact, he tried to keep his family's hopes up by bringing home their favourite food so that they could be happy in spite of their circumstances. mika was able to find a light inside the darkness. he found happiness and that happiness was seeing his family happy. he forced himself to endure the pain of ferid taking his blood just so his family could have a little shred of happiness at the end of the day at dinner. mika also kept this a secret from his family, but yuu was able to find out. he got angry at mika for letting himself get hurt. as always, mika tried his best to hide his tears because he didn't want to stop bringing hope to his family. he's always been a hard worker. in the orphanage, he created a family. in sanguinem, he kept his family intact even if it meant sacrificing his own body.
the most heartbreaking part of sanguinem is seeing mika realize that his own efforts led to the deaths of the orphans. i can't imagine how much it hurt him, considering how hard he worked to steal that map and gun from ferid's mansion. and, in the end, mika was only a pawn in ferid's game.
when mika was turned into a vampire, he turned into a more stoic, cold, and distant person. however, i still believe that mika is still mika. we can see this when he's alone with yuu where he feels like he can be himself for once! for four years mika was left in solitude. he was surrounded by the monsters who killed his family and was also turned into one. i can't imagine how much he hated himself during those four years without someone to reassure him and tell him that he was still himself and that it wasn't his fault for the orphans' deaths. he spent all those years still believing it was his fault that yuu had fallen into the hands of the humans and that it was his fault that his family was now torn apart. and we all know how important family is to mika.
i admire mika so much for always being strong and loving no matter what has happened to him. he always kept his heart pure and full of love. all of the things he has done has been out of love and you can't change my mind.
“ i would break my
own heart to protect yours ”
to elaborate on what i had just said about mika doing everything out of love, i have to say that the only reason mika had continued to live and resist his temptation to drink blood was yuu. he kept true to his heart because of the only family he had left. when mika tells yuu to run away with him it's for a few reasons and it's because mika can't bear to lose the only person he has left and simply because he loves yuu. when mika and yuu are reunited, you can tell how mika was suddenly filled with emotions and the need to save the only family he had left. mika does so much for his family just like yuu does. he fights armies for his family. he waits for days for his family to recover. he's one of the most loyal characters i know. he remains true to his heart whether he be vampire or human because i know he's still mika whether he have fangs or not. i want him to live and it makes me so sad to know that he'd be okay if he died.
it breaks my heart when mika says that there are no such things as friends in a world like this because honestly, and i mean this with all my heart, mika deserves to have friends who he can depend on. he deserves the best of the best. he deserves the world, but the world doesn't deserve him. he deserves all the stars in the sky.
he's my baby, my angel, my love, my sweetheart, my baby boy, and my everything. i'd do anything if it meant giving him a happy ending because i can't name a character that deserves it more than mika does. i want him to be human again because i know being a human would make him happy again. he's struggling so much with his emotions and he certainly does not deserve to lose them. he's always fighting so hard for the people he loves. he loves so deeply and genuinely and when he does all these things for his family, i can really tell that all these actions come from his heart and i know his heart is and will always be beautiful and full.
“ out of all the smiles in the world,
yours is my favourite”
now, i'll talk about how much he means to me! i've always mentioned how strong he is whether it be in this lovemail or in one of my many appreciation posts. that's because he is the strongest character i know and i admire him so much for being so strong. when i see mika, i think about how he's still good, loving, and caring even after everything he's been through and that inspires me to be like that too! i want to be a good person no matter what i've gone through in life. i want to better the people around me in my life and i want to make them happy just like how mika made his family happy. i love making my loved ones happy just like mika and i hope i can continue making them happy. i'm able to do these things because mika inspires me and keeps me going and is always giving me positive messages throughout my day to keep on fighting. he's been fighting for so long and he hasn't given up, so i should be doing the same too!
mika makes me so happy. whenever i see any sort of content for him, i get happy and i get super super soft for him and suddenly i look like one of those wholesome memes with heart emojis all around me. i love mika's humour, his playfulness, and how clever he is too. i love him too too much! he's always been so soft to me, but when he needs to, he could kick anyone's ass.
he's the light of my life and i would be nothing without him. he deserves everything good in this world and i truly mean this. i've never meant anything this much in my life when i say that mika deserves a happy ending. at the end of owari no seraph, i hope that mika is happy. i love mika with everything i can muster in this heart of mine. he's my number one forever and ever ♡
